Apr. 20th, 2014 02:04 am
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Bought a ticket for the 4pm showing of The Last Unicorn on May 18, which is part of a movie tour featuring the writer in attendance.

Also saw ads for Only Lovers Left Alive on the screens above the platforms in the metro. I think that's still opening next week-end.

Not sure if I should go see Oculus in theatres. It's got some okay reviews? And Karen Gillan is the star. With Katee Sackoff playing her mother (!). But the appreciation of horror movies is so subjective that it's tough to trust reviews.

Rewatched The Ruins. Johanna Mason's Hungers Games were seriously rough.

My sleep cycle is slipping again because of the long weekend.

Abusive Parents Need Love, Too....

Apr. 19th, 2014 01:27 pm
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But do you have to be the one to give it to them?

When Elder Care Hurts: Caring for Elders who have been Abusive or Neglectful.

I know from my own experience that the final illness and death of the abuser is a wrenching process, no matter how much healing you've done.

I'm a paper doll, I'm a cartoon

Apr. 18th, 2014 11:47 pm
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Hooooly hannah y'all I was NOT prepared for Farscape 3.16, wow wow wow, I thought I was trippin' earlier this evening.

(I suspect I'm going to end up staying up late tonight; there's an awful lot of partyish noise outside, perhaps some sort of sporting event? What DID we do before Netflix Watch Instant? Actually, scratch that, I remember life before Netflix Watch Instant; I watched all of BtVS and AtS on Netflix delivery DVDs, rationed out in little 4-episode-a-week mini-binges. NOT fun.)

eta: "I don't wanta be like other people. I don't wanta be like you. I don't wanta stoop that low. Kirk wouldn't stoop that low." What the HELLL show you just HIT ME WITH THAT KIND OF SWEET ISH with no warning or nothing? Like. That's even better than Lois McMaster Bujold's continued "City on the Edge of Forever" ref, "I love you" and "let me help."

God, I love science fiction.

The Excrement Poem, by Maxine Kumin

Apr. 18th, 2014 01:22 am
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Maxine Kumin died this year. I didn't know that. She is not mentioned in The Oxford Book of American Poetry, Chosen and Edited by David Lehman. Was she not highly regarded?

I started reading her poems and essays when I was new to living in the country, new to having a horse to take care of and a dog to train, new to the post-hole digger and the fencing pliers, to thinking about drainage, to making compost. Maxine Kumin wrote poems about these things that made me say yes, that.

The Excrement Poem

That was fast.

Apr. 17th, 2014 07:14 pm
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My order from Monday evening arrived today. (And I didn't get any import fees on top, yay.)

Reverse Double Secret Motivation

Apr. 17th, 2014 12:43 pm
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 In the tradition of "I have some work to do so I'm going to be offline for a couple of days" and then posting like seventeen items in a twenty-four hour period:  How caffeine affects your body.

Also, I got a Ten Years After riff stuck in my head (it turned out to be "Love Like a Man," which is a lovely piece of music if you tune out the lyrics).

Also, I'm going to the Bead Bazaar Saturday morning, because I need some beads.

(prose) poetry sale!

Apr. 17th, 2014 11:59 am
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My prose poem "Witches of Childhood" will appear in the spring issue of Interfictions. The piece is part of a series of poems I've been working on which use classic films/TV/pop culture as jumping off points.

Birthday greetings and felicitations

Apr. 17th, 2014 05:24 am
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To [personal profile] dingsi and [personal profile] ironjeff, belatedly. May that be the worst thing that happens this year!

swallowed by a whale

Apr. 17th, 2014 12:24 am
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You know, there's a (damaged) part of me that really does believe in love virginity - except coming from the opposite angle of the sex-negative fundamentalist doctrine Libby Anne discusses at the above. Instead of fearing that I was in danger of losing the purity and intactness of my heart as a younger girl, I now find myself horribly convinced that, having oddly enough played by (most) of the old rules, having committed myself to forever with my first boyfriend & first sex partner but then having had that go all to hell, I've irretrivably lost the valuable commodity of a virgin heart. I no longer have one to offer. And without one I feel resourceless.

I know that's broken logic, but that's how it feels, right now, deep down inside. I am glad to have language for it, though, & will seek to do some patching. It's a way that I feel out of touch with my age cohort, because I keep finding emotional resonance in the words of older divorcees leaving long-term marriages that few of my friends have had the time to build as of yet.

I do wonder where I picked this stuff up in the first place.

fooled heart beating so fast

Apr. 16th, 2014 10:12 pm
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I've spent several hours tonight reading Love, Joy, Feminism, by Libby Anne, a blog by a survivor of Christian Patriarchy, and I'm nowhere near through. I didn't expect to find personal connection when I opened a link to her so much as sociocultural analysis, but there are a number of interesting intersections between her experiences and mine: a child of a family-centered family with a lot of closeness and some major boundary issues, a former funny old-fashioned little girl who liked to sew patchwork and wear Laura Ingalls Wilder dresses (and also couldn't afford entrance to the worlds of mall fashion and pop music that my peers inhabited), someone who essentially "married" her very first boyfriend as a young teen. Not to mention my years of decidedly secular but also decidedly oddball homeschooling and the distrust for mainstream culture my parents raised me to. Opposite ideological bent, but same basic set of doctrines: question them, they're not to be trusted. The family way is Best.

There's a weird balance between liberalism and conservatism in being an outsider, I think; I couldn't have been brought up with more radical politics, and certainly in the eyes of Christian Patriarchalists I have been the worst of sinners, but in other ways I recognize the defensive snobbery of the girl-child who wants to believe that she's better than the other girls because she's industrious and family-oriented instead of crass or materialistic, and I'm not sure it mattered that much that my parents were anti-capitalist intellectuals instead of religious fundamentalists, not in the virtuous outsider social psychology of that sort of thing.

But it's awkward, because I still also do often think that the family ways I was raised to ARE Best, really & truly, and I want to be loyal to them.

Relatedly (?), I guess my Mormon childhood bff and intermittent crush object is also moving back up north. I have ... complex? ... feelings about this.


Apr. 16th, 2014 05:33 pm
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Did ok on my trip, but just ok. I also got through work today. And I wrote a blog post because it seemed like it had to be done. But now I'm totally done touching a keyboard. Exhausted, in pain, a bit fevery feeling all over. I have not managed to unpack yet. Moomin helped me put away clean laundry. Zond7 ordered us groceries and cleaned up and we have a helpful house cleaner coming tomorrow. I need serious rest.

Read The Goblin Emperor, which I highly recommend! OMG... more like this!

Also, Pen Pal by Francesca Forrest.

Both excellent!!!

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Apr. 16th, 2014 01:18 am
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Emerson Cod has a framed print of my grandmother's 1933 Chicago World's Fair poster hanging in his office. I can't even.

My grandmother was born in Chicago in '33, a World's Fair baby, and she's got a tremendous collection of related stuff, but that poster - the one by Glen C. Sheffer, with the lady standing on the globe with her arms outreached - is the one she's always had most prominently on display. In quiet tribute to her, I've used it as an opening object in my science-fiction-topic comp class, and three circular detail-crops top my current syllabus. Suffice it to say that the image is majorly iconic for me and seeing it in this show is blowing my heart to confused sentimental bits.

tax day

Apr. 15th, 2014 09:11 pm
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I filed our state and federal returns, nagged Mungo into filing his first tax returns (aw!), and filed an extension request for Nixie, because after I gave up on getting her to find time to do it with me, I discovered that one of her w-2s is missing. It's for the Indian restaurant that she worked at during her internship at UIUC. It's okay, I said, just ask them for a replacement. I have no way of getting in touch with them, she said. ARGH!

The most annoying thing is that it doesn't matter, it isn't going to raise her total to the point that she would owe any taxes, but I need it anyway!

She emailed the former roommates to see if they had it.

Mungo asked how much more of a hassle his were going to be next year, assuming he gets a job in Canada. I have no idea! I assume he still won't earn enough to owe anything, but that he'll have to file returns to that effect in both countries.

Almost Forgot

Apr. 15th, 2014 02:56 pm
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It's Signor da Vinci's 462nd! Don't light all the candles!
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Scott Miller died a year ago today. I didn't find out until two days later, and my response was, "I can't believe it." I can scarcely believe it a year later. He was only fifty-three. (His cause of death has never been disclosed online--in an attempt, I believe, to protect his two young children from ghoulishness--though he was open about his struggles with depression.)

I knew Scott only slightly. I saw his band the Loud Family play a few times between 1995-2000. I interviewed him over the phone for the Bay Area New Times in 1998. It was the rock interview I was most pleased (and overawed) to get to do. He was unassuming and humorous, as well as vastly intelligent. Much later, we were Facebook friends. (Unbelievably, both my Facebook friends named Scott are now dead. Today I find myself imagining Scott Miller and poet Scott Wannberg arguing about music and books in heaven.) [Edited to add: It occurs to me now that I do have a living Facebook friend named Scott! But he goes under a different name on Facebook, which is why I forgot.]

Scott Miller's music meant, and means, so much to me, as does his book about pop music, Music: What Happened? Today hurts, as I knew it would.

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Partway through the third season I'm still really enjoying Farscape; I appreciate the way it keeps bending my brain around in weird ways. But watching it is also kind of like playing Crazy Chicken. While I'd picked up the analysis from fannish osmosis of John Crichton as raped, I wasn't prepared AT ALL for the degree to which the show/Ben Browder are dedicated to the depiction of the cracks in his psyche. This is a show about madness - and while at the moment I find that topic deeply compelling I have to admit that there have been moments when I've had to tap out. I couldn't handle the clone arc, just couldn't handle it. I feel so on edge, watching, because I worry that they're going to crack his sanity like an egg at any moment.

And then there are the bits like "Look at the Princess" and "Liars, Guns, and Money," which are just altogether delightful and delicious and delovely and man I love SF multiparters. I'm really into John/Aeryn as a ship, no surprise there. I already knew that I was in love with Claudia Black because duh who isn't, but Gigi Edgly is charming the pants off of me, and I also am really digging on John&Chiana as a platonic bffs deal.

I bopped over into Pushing Daisies because I did kind of need a break from the psychological intensity of Farscape. I'd seen half of the first episode of the second season at home with my parents, and we'd backbuttoned out because it was clear we'd missed too much context by not starting from the beginning. I am PRIMED for Lee Pace; his movie The Fall has been occupying a lot of my psychic real estate since I saw it a few years back, and I just his face. However I did not anticipate the degree or speed with/to which I am DEAD GONE on Ned the Piemaker, who I lust after with more fervor than I've experienced in rather a while. Despite the whimsical charms of lonely tourist Charlotte Charles I ttly ship Ned/Olive; Cheno is da bomb and I cannot resist her squawky little voice. My sib and I spent a lot of hours listening to Jim Dale read the Harry Potter books, so I also pick up a lot of snuggly comfort from his narration.

Aren't media texts with narrators cool? I was trying to list other ones in my head last night and could only come up with Sally Potter's Orlando and Stranger Than Fiction, though I guess you could also say that most of Baz Lurhmann's films and, like, Singin in the Rain are also essentially narrated, just through a variety of schticks rather than an Eliotian interpretive voice from on high.

Hippo Birdie Two Ewes

Apr. 15th, 2014 06:38 am
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 to [personal profile] jimhines !  Have a day of happiness!

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Apr. 14th, 2014 10:49 pm
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So NBC's online store has a one-day-only 25% off code (Community25) for Community merch ending tonight. I'd never bought from them before because their shipping costs to Canada are prohibitive (over $20 for even the smallest purchase), but with the coupon, my birthday coming up, and having two exams at school this week, I spent a couple of hours waffling over the possibilities and ended up finally getting a Troy & Abed in the Morning mug (miss you, Troy; show's not the same without you), a couple of knick-knacks (no apparel, too expensive), and an SNL Stefon keychain while I was at it. (Tried to get the 15% newsletter signup discount too but that never worked.)

Need sleep now. Up past my well-rested-at-school-the-next-day bedtime.

Some of the kids in my class actually play D&D at lunchtime, but the regressive politics of their gameplay (ie, semi-joking rape threats against NPCs) are depressing.
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state of the me: too busy, too stressed. I'm really looking forward to next month, when I'll be out of school (for good! at least for a while) and able to focus on regrouping, recentering, rebuilding. money is bothersome; I'm too paro and anxious to run close to the financial margin for long without getting fretful.

How do you guys talk to people you care about - family chosen or otherwise - about digital support networks? I ask because as a quiet loner people do fuss about me, and I don't feel like I've ever managed to get across just how powerful digital connection can be. I think they see digital networks as a prosthetic, a stand-in for the social life they think I'm too shy or damaged or whatever to seek out. But. I can't even imagine the last decade of my life without internet media fandom and all the wonderful people it's helped me meet and talk to. Mama talks up the benefit of friends who aren't your be-all and end-all, they maybe rub you wrong ways but they're a social group - but I think there's also something intensely marvelous about the way that digital connection seems to short-circuit small talk, the way it plunges you right into the intensest of intimacies.

when I write that here, I'm confident that y'all will feel me. I wish I could figure out how to get normspace folk to do the same.

(I've been consuming media like a mofo in the attempt to conquer my massive piles of grading, so when I am more able to words on the subject I will post about Farscape and Pushing Daisies, both of which are giving me feelings of the most intense and delightful kind. I meant to do that when I opened the entry window but words are apparently feeling slippery.)
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